Ebay
14 Apr 2012 Leave a Comment
I am selling my Kenneth Cole boots on ebay. I bought them over Christmas and never wore them. Check them out here: http://www.ebay.com/itm/290697194532?ssPageName=STRK:MESELX:IT&_trksid=p3984.m1555.l2649
9 Things I Really Want To Do In My Lifetime.
10 Apr 2012 3 Comments
in happiness project, self love, wellness
1. Give speeches that inspire others and are empowering.
2. Be with the man of my dreams.
3. Lose 20lbs. For my health, not because I want to “look good.”
4. Travel. All over Europe, all over the US, Canada, Portland Oregon
5. Counsel women and children.
6. Be an artist and dance
7. Plant a garden.
8. Live on my own, in my own apartment with my own cat.
9. Show up for things I say that I will, stop being avoidant, unless it positively serves me.
Creative Scenes
09 Apr 2012 1 Comment
in art, Uncategorized Tags: cartoon, comic, painting, painting like a kid, sketchbook
This is what trust looks like. Just going for it, cannonballing into the water. 
I redid this comic, I think it looks better now. Though the original is still in my heart.
Art is sexy. Art is Smart.
Listening to Geographer’s song “Kites.”
Babci
09 Apr 2012 1 Comment
When my Babci died, I wasn’t ready to see her go. When my mom called me to tell me she had succumbed to cancer, I was in my second year of college (2003), and I remember saying to her “But I didn’t get to say goodbye.”
I remember when I was about…3 years old, and I thought that Heaven was a place you could drive to. My dad kept trying to explain to me, no, it’s not somewhere you can drive to, it’s up in the clouds and you can only get there by dying, I still didn’t quite get it. But hey I was only 3.
My Babci was a special lady. When I was young, I was very interested in the idea of the afterlife, mainly Heaven, and Angels. I always wanted Babci to tell me stories of Angels. Like, what they were like, and that sort of thing. I just assumed she knew about Angels, because she was very VERY religious. She went to Church almost everyday. The only story I remember her telling me was a story I’d overheard her saying to someone else, maybe my dad. I think I asked her to tell me too. But when She told me personally, it wasn’t as exciting sounding for some reason. But the story, basically, was that there was an angel in her house, and she knew he had been there, because there was a single feather, left from his wing, in her hallway.
Babci…she always sang songs to us. When we were little: I point to myself and say, here. And always, even when we were older, when we were parting for the evening: A bushel and a peck/ a hug around the neck/ a barrel and a heap/ and I’m talking in my sleep about youuuu, do do do do do dooo…….
I had a rough few years in college before I got situated. My freshman year, I would go over to her house a lot, and knit with her. She was sick then too, she confided in me one day, that she was afraid, I think, to die. I remember I had a Maya Angelou book with me, and I found a chapter she might like and told her, gently, that reading it might make her feel better.
She always said goodnight to us in Polish. Therefore, I know how to say goodnight to you, in Polish.
Dobranoc.
Find a “Comfort Food” for Your Mind.
08 Apr 2012 Leave a Comment
This is a great post:
Find a “Comfort Food” for Your Mind..
I didn’t know about negative bias. Interesting.
07 Apr 2012 Leave a Comment
I signed up for an online dating site. I can’t believe I did that, because I sort of feel like I could be in a better place than I already am, mentally. But I did do it. I signed up at okcupid. To be honest, my take on it is that it’s kind of lame. But there’s always that hope of meeting someone cute, nice, and who clicks with you. I sort of envisioned finding someone not online, because my last boyfriend of 2 years, I found him online and, I dunno, I just didn’t think it was something I’d go back to but anyway…
I haven’t been here in like a week. I think because I’ve been avoiding telling you I didn’t go to ballet this week. I am really disappointed and hard on myself for it. I guess I just need to remember that that day wasn’t the day for me. And I tried. And it’s OK.
Does my mood seem down? I think it is. Writing this, I feel like it’s down.
Things I did accomplish this week:
1. I went to the gym and to a NIA class.
2. I went to work
3. I got some paperwork filled out that I needed to do.
OK well I’m going to go do something productive about my mood now. Later
01 Apr 2012 Leave a Comment
in happiness project, self love, wellness Tags: friendship, happiness project
I went walking in the rain today. I wore my cliche yellow raincoat. I had a really good day today. I don’t know how much to tell. You know how sometimes you just want to keep it to yourself? Like it will jinx you, if you say more? Yeah, that’s how I feel. I had a good day today.
So I’ve been thinking about 2 other things I can add to my happiness project besides commitment: 1. friendship, and 2. my income (aka, money). I think both of these things are REALLY good things to put into my happiness project.
Friendship: a lot of times I feel like, I have very few friends to lean on and really, I have barely any close friends. Other times, I feel like I have grasped at straws of relationships that weren’t there anymore, and the people I was grasping for, weren’t really as interested in being friends as I was. And still other times, I have been invited to things like get-togethers, only to turn them down, because I was afraid of interacting with so many new people.
So I’ve been doing some things. I’ve been taking a ballet class, and I’ve been going to the gym. I actually met someone there! It was a few weeks ago. Maybe a month ago? She was really nice. We chatted a little. Then I kinda stopped going to classes there. I know, I’m an idiot. I just kinda lost track of it. But I’ll tell you something, I’d like to go back and see her again, at least look for her, see if she’s there. And just go for the sheer fun of it. Meet other people even. I’m going to make time to do it.
I’ll save the cha-ching($), for another post.
Have a great week everyone!!!
01 Apr 2012 Leave a Comment
in Uncategorized, wellness Tags: music, sesame street, Sunday, the simple things
Some days, you just need to have a nice meal with your family, and spend the evening googling Sesame Street and playing this song on repeat:
Exploring..
30 Mar 2012 Leave a Comment
My mind keeps wandering to “What is my passion?” Gretchen Rubin dedicates an entire month, and an entire chapter in her book, to pursuing her passion. What is my passion? Maybe it’s too soon to tell. A lot of people would assume that it’s art. But I don’t know.
I was thinking of exploring this more. I could think of times when I really had fun and really enjoyed myself, and I could be more mindful of when I really am enjoying myself. I won’t do this in like 20 minutes. Maybe I’ll spend the whole month exploring. Really paying attention. Some things that come to my mind right now: 9th grade drama class. middle school ballet. Watching Ted Talks on Youtube. The feeling I get coming home after I’ve exercised.
Followup on commitment: Commitment is definitely going in my happiness project. I forget its importance. I think that if I’m going to work, that’s enough. But work doesn’t even fulfill me. It gives me structure, yes. But I need more. Oh and I went to my ballet class this week. Go me!
